Quote I’m contempating:
“Gratitude is not only the greatest of virtues, but the parent of all others.”Marcus Tullius Cicero, Roman statesman, lawyer, scholar, and philosopher born 106 BC
a philosopher once asked me “evan, you have a list of many, many things you want to do in life, such as building companies, fighting for these causes, creating anime, and so on. what will you do when you complete everything on your list?”
“i guess… i would make more lists. and still want do more,” i responded.
i let my answer sink in. really, evan? this is the best you could think of?
in that moment i realized the folly of my life. somewhere along the way in life, i chose to condemn myself. if i did not become “successful” according to my unrealistic expectations, i would be deemed a failure, a total loser.
it’s hard to describe my mood for the following days after this epiphany. on one hand, i was depressed, asking myself “where did i go wrong?” and on the other, i felt hope. awareness is the first step to any healing. you cannot heal what you are unaware of.
if a series of thoughts and beliefs created this life’s plan and trajectory of mine, then it must be true that another series of thoughts and beliefs can get me out of this trap i ensnared myself in.
i’m happy to report i’ve made strides of progress thanks to coaching, meditation, therapy, powerful conversations, and endless self inquiry.
evan, you have everything you could ever need. you lucked out being born into a loving and hard working immigrant family. you have many friends and comrades who will go to great lengths for you. you work at one of the most exciting companies in this generation. you live in the most iconic cities in the galaxy. you have a life full of rich experiences, which billions of people would consider their prayers answered if they have anything close to what i have. and most importantly you are in great health and shape.
“This is the greatest moment of your life, man! And you’re off somewhere missing it.“Fight Club
in spite of my life being a blessing, i’ve recognized it only to be full of sadness, contempt, mediocrity, and deficiency. what a tragedy.
evan, only now do you realize that if you are not happy now, then you will never be happy.
so the choice is yours and yours alone. do you choose to be grateful for who you are and what you have today? or will you continue to delay gratitude, acceptance, and love for yourself and the beautiful life you have created?
the answer is clear.
your word carries weight and power. do not misuse the word against yourself. do not dishonor yourself, for there is no honor in playing the victim and seeing your life anything short of a miracle. and lastly, go beyond your own needs, wants, and inner monologue. there is no power in worrying only about yourself. commit to ensuring that each person on this planet recognizes that their lives are also miracles.